Ambivalence vs. Indifference

Ambivalence is a tug of war
Do I live the adventure or build roots?
Tension, energy, pulling, dynamic, forcing
Should I eat chocolate or not?
Two would-be friends fight to death
Child Jaimie and Parent Jaimie stage warfare
Frenemys; needy, loving, hating
I hated some teachers and messengers I worked with because I needed understanding.
the pro-con list grows ad infinitum
The more I think about it the deeper I sink in the mire of indecision
Damned if I do, Damned if I don't
Whatever I pick destroys the possibility of experiencing the other
One win spells another's loss
I cant get what I want without taking it from someone else
bipolar, roller coaster
When I ask advice, one friend says, "Absolutely!" and the other, "Absolutely not!"
Swinging from a ten to a one.
I can be so sure of Gods love, but unconvinced of his goodness.
Stuck between duty and longing...
The identity of a gypsy philosopher or a loved community member.

Indifference is a balanced scale.
It doesn't matter what we do on my birthday
Static, effortless, detached, observing
I am interested in your thoughts, since I can't really pinpoint mine.
A sensible judge, free from bias
It doesn't matter whether my we go to the movies or stay home tonight.
acquaintences, cohabiting, small talk
I'm not sure I care if I see most people I have spent this year with again.
A flipped coin calls the shots
I am ok with moving to LA or living in Denver.
There are no winners, no losers.
The incentive to run another marathon just isn't there, but if you're game, I am.
I just don't give a damn.
It doesn't bother me that my ring finger is permanently crooked.
A Flatlined, uncommitted shrug
Like I felt when I looked at all Jimmy's facebook pics
Lukewarm--the perfect five
Cant seem to put in the effort to make the change.
Comfortably numb
Seeing both directions as paths with consequences--not good/bad, right/wrong, just different.