I was in a wierd place when woke up, because I found the "dream" gig, where I could get paid $3000 plus airfare plus $25 a day to ride my bike from NYC to LA this summer with a group of cyclists. One requirement is that I blogged every day. I am so drawn to these "gigs". But I know that there are things in my life that are good (that are going to cost $$$$$) that I want to do. This thing would be from June 26-August 21. Two months! I would miss my road trip with Boyfriend, time with Boyfriend, my camping trip with my church, NYC with Sara....if i went I would be surrounded by partying hipsters I wouldn't want to spend my time with...is it really my dream or am i just compulsively drawn to epicness?

I was thinking about this when I read the parable about the wedding banquet in Matthew 22. The king prepares this wedding banquet for his son. When he goes to get people, they are busy with stuff. To busy with weeding the graden, working the shop, etc. I hope I am able to recognize what God wants me to do! I hope I don't miss the party! I know ultimately life is about love, and I spending time with people I love and who love me is more important than an epic life, making money, finding my own piece of fame and fortune. Plus, I have already rode my bike across country, and won bike messenger world championships. As important as those things seemed to me, they didn't bring the peace, clarity, sense of purpose I desired.

A good reminder--love God with all my heart, soul and mind. The Message says with all my passion, prayer and intelligence...and love my neighbor as myself. My life becomes about so many other things!!