Saturday, September 12, 2009

"The scriptures teach a distinction between sin and weakness. “Sin” (hamartia) refers to the changes in our nature and behavior for which we are responsible, while “weakness” (astheneia) refers to those changes in our nature for which we are not responsible. God responds to our sin with judgement tempered by grace, while his response to weakness is tenderness and compassion…"

When I was a kid, I got in trouble for things that were weaknesses, and got away with a lot of sin.

Things I got in really big trouble for:
I broke a tree branch off a tree I had in the back yard.
I didn't care about my goat enough.
I didn't pay attention enough/have enough common sense.
I let the play room get so messy that my dad raked it all in the middle of the room, set me in the middle and made me stay there until I cleaned it (I was five or younger and sat there for hours, completely overwhelmed!)
My dog got sprayed by a skunk
My bike got stolen
Wrecking my first car (I didn't know how to drive a stick and no one ever taught me!)
These were not sins, they were just stuff that little kids do.
Things I didn't get in trouble for that I should have:
Blaming bad stuff I did on imaginary friend.
Being abusive to my little sister
Being greedy and not sharing....
Being gluttonous and eating all the sweets!
Never helping my mom around the house
Never cleaning up after myself.
etc.
I would like to learn to discipline myself around sin, and show myself grace around weakness. I often do the exact opposite--let myself rebel and beat myself up for things that are more weaknesses.
Things I get really mad at myself for:
When I eat candy
When I lose stuff
When I do not stay on task
When I am not efficient
When I make the wrong decision even though I really tried to make the right one.
When I can't understand something.

Things I should hold myself accountable for but dont:
When I am ungrateful
When I refuse to believe that God is faithful and wants to give me good gifts.
When I rage at people and throw tantrums
When I am prideful and think I am smarter than everyone.
When I am envious and want what everyone else has
When I am selfish with my time.
When I demand that everyone do what I want them to do.

So, I am sitting with all this.

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