Illusions of Control

I crouch low, control my center of gravity
Tight turns, I see my next line
A gust of wind blows snow off the trees
white out--

"You shouldn't have intimacy without commitment"
I preach, confident in my self-dicipline
and lack of options, interest, time
Blind date--

She is on vacation in Vail at her boyfriend's condo
She lives in her boyfriends fancy house
He bought her a car
Break up--

Brian is coming; we are off to strawberry hot springs
A day of relaxing, then he is my ride home
I have big plans on Sunday.
Blizzard--

I am doing good saving up money;
I stopped buying ridiculous suppliments,
Books, Bikes, Exercise equipment
Living on less is easy!
New guy--

Finally, my friends can rest a little.
Two kids in college, a home
Seeing the grandkids every week
Nervous Breakdown--

Guy is going to Italy next year
Finally got his rotator cuff fixed,
Spring break at the beach in Cali
Mushrooms--

Weaving in and out of trees
Fast enought to be challenging,
slow enough to feel safe.
Ice, a rock, a tree well,
Flying--