Ocean

Before I met you I sang about you;
You the home of barges and pirates
Casting reflections of flickering lights
Red/green/white...pale yellow moon.
Lucy and I loved to be with you.

We started playing this game
I would rush into you and find a deep place to stand still
And you would run away from me.
My foundations would crumble
I was suddenly speeding and trying to stand.

I didn't like your captivity
You forced me into steel hulls
To eat canned beans and white bread
I couldn't sense the invisible boundaries
that separated territories until I had
already crossed them, and angered hardened girls

I do not like being in you, but next to you
I remember healthy respect.
Humbled by your obstinate rythm
I paddle through your break
And catch a surge
Aware of times you have slammed me into a sandbar.

You have taught me about pelicans
Reminded me of the body I wish I had
Helped me feel Holy fear
Given me a vision of the perfect family vacation
Modeled the uneven swells of my soul
I miss you.